This is really happening...

For about a year now our answer to the question "So, what's going on with going active?" has been "...we're waiting on the Marine Corps... A few more pounds... another meeting..." or several other reasons for it to be unknown and in the future. Well we are finally at the place where we can say "We'll have orders by the middle of May."
I have such mixed feelings about this. We are in a place in our lives where we NEED a change. We have to start moving forward- we have small children that are not going to wait for preschool (though I don't know if we'll send them yet) and new shoes, clothes, sports, classes, birthday parties... the list goes on. It doesn't help that I want the best for them, and the best is not cheap. I don't care! I'll sacrifice so they don't have to.
I need my own home again! I think that pretty much all I need to say about that...
At the same time I'm scared to leave the familiarity of our little island, and be across the country from our family. They are our support system, have helped us more than they'll ever know, and I feel so selfish to take my boys away from them.
I'm excited, terrified, optimistic, and anxious all at the same time. I've been using this story to explain how I'm feeling. "We knew there was a light at the end of the tunnel, we just didn't know how far away the light was. Within one week the light flew toward us and we're blinded!"
I don't know if I'm ready, but this is really happening and I can't wait!